Does anyone else feel like they can’t write nearly as well when not in a bad phase of depression? All phases of depression are bad of course, but some times are much worse than others. With myself, I find that the deeper in depression I fall, the better my writing flows. I cannot write fiction. It is awkward and boring when it comes from this mind, unless I am deeply depressed. My deepest and worst depression brought about the only decent fiction I have ever been able to write.
Maybe it is the intensity with which all things are felt during the “bad times”. Maybe it is the medicine numbing me out and keeping me from feeling the words. Either way, I wish it were not necessarily so. I miss the drive and ability to write, but don’t long for deep depression. Maybe one day my brain/body will find that happy medium.
What is your experience? When are you able to do your best writing?