I am depressed. This is a more difficult time than I have had in a long time. I am also hysterically thankful, for many things and some people. My job is so great. It is reliable. There are only a handful of people that need be dealt with on a daily basis. I am fairly decent at it. My sister is such an amazing person. She is a huge reason I am here to write today. Mostly, at this moment, I am thankful for my boyfriend. He is great. He loves me and allows me to feel whatever I’m feeling. He doesn’t ask for a mask. He doesn’t always realize when he is getting one, but that is exactly how I want it. Then again, he catches on sometimes before I do. Last weekend, he realized I was having an anxiety attack before I realized it was coming. He holds me through them and dries my tears after. He is tender and loving in ways I never dreamed. The reality is, life sucks. The reality is, some parts are amazing.